I hate to admit how much I have been struggling lately and how incredibly hard it has been to find the blessings and positivity during this time of my life that I should be grateful for. You can't say anything to me that I haven't said to myself. I feel like the positive soul that I have worked so hard to be is slowing being chipped away and turning into a whiney, complaining, negative bitter old woman.
I shared that sentiment with my Ankylosing Spondylitis Support group, the responses were kind and loving and then Lila shared this with me, " We can't heal what we don't feel." That statement hit me just as deep as the one Sean had shared many years ago, "Happiness is forgiving your self for being human."
After letting that comment resonate in my soul, I felt like a weight had been lifted off of me.
I didn't have to carry the burden of feeling guilty or less than for feeling the emotions I am feeling during this time. I didn't have to worry about becoming a bitter or negative person because that is not who I am! I realized that no matter how I felt during this time it would not change who I am or how I see life and that as long as I allowed myself to feel these emotions and deal with them I would begin to heal.
So the next time you are "complaining" about what you are going through take a moment and pause to remember it isn't "complaining" or being negative or being a whiney butt or whatever else society tends to call it. It's about being real, it's about being human, it's about being honest and validating your feelings about whatever it is you are going through in your life.
Remember we can not HEAL what do not feel, so be kind to yourself and allow yourself to feel what you are going through and then and ONLY then will you be able to deal with it and begin to heal, healing begins within.
Today ended up being a wonderful day in spite of all the difficulties I am dealing with because I know that it's okay for me to feel this way.
I think the thing I am most grateful for today is that I am not my "feelings", I am my actions.
My feelings are mine and mine alone and will not turn me into anything only if I allow it.
Today and for now on I will allow myself to be honest about what I am feeling and not apologize for being human and for being real.
Today my healing begins within, and with determination I will find gratitude.
I shared that sentiment with my Ankylosing Spondylitis Support group, the responses were kind and loving and then Lila shared this with me, " We can't heal what we don't feel." That statement hit me just as deep as the one Sean had shared many years ago, "Happiness is forgiving your self for being human."
After letting that comment resonate in my soul, I felt like a weight had been lifted off of me.
I didn't have to carry the burden of feeling guilty or less than for feeling the emotions I am feeling during this time. I didn't have to worry about becoming a bitter or negative person because that is not who I am! I realized that no matter how I felt during this time it would not change who I am or how I see life and that as long as I allowed myself to feel these emotions and deal with them I would begin to heal.
So the next time you are "complaining" about what you are going through take a moment and pause to remember it isn't "complaining" or being negative or being a whiney butt or whatever else society tends to call it. It's about being real, it's about being human, it's about being honest and validating your feelings about whatever it is you are going through in your life.
Remember we can not HEAL what do not feel, so be kind to yourself and allow yourself to feel what you are going through and then and ONLY then will you be able to deal with it and begin to heal, healing begins within.
Today ended up being a wonderful day in spite of all the difficulties I am dealing with because I know that it's okay for me to feel this way.
I think the thing I am most grateful for today is that I am not my "feelings", I am my actions.
My feelings are mine and mine alone and will not turn me into anything only if I allow it.
Today and for now on I will allow myself to be honest about what I am feeling and not apologize for being human and for being real.
Today my healing begins within, and with determination I will find gratitude.
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