The past month has been extremely hard, hell who am I kidding the last year has been.
I know that everyone is getting tired of Hurricane Harvey, I assure you I am too! One thing for sure it has taken my mind of my pain and AS for sure. Just know a different kind of pain fills my heart.
I had an appointment to go to my insurance claim office to sign over the Impala that was totaled out due to the flood waters.
I have been having trouble with anxiety these past few weeks when leaving the house.
It was so shocking to see the aftermath of Hurricane Harvey on a larger scale outside my neighborhood.
I was parked on the freeway stuck in traffic, looking around, the bayou is about 50 foot down but there in the trees, some 60 foot in the air was a bag of garbage resting on the tree branches as if it had perched its self there for a sunny day.
There were so much trash and debris everywhere, and no matter where you looked people's lives were piled out on the street for heavy trash pickup. Each home had a story to tell of loss, pain, and devastation one right after another and so on and so on. It was beyond heartbreaking it was soul shattering to see.
Traffic came to a standstill and people were honking and you could see their frustration on their faces. I tried to concentrate on the music and not the fact I would probably be late to my appointment.
Sitting in traffic for almost an hour was very frustrating and like everyone else, I began to think what the hell, let's go already!
One by one we moved at a snail's pace, then the reason for the stalled traffic became obvious.
My heart dropped seeing the police directing several lanes of traffic to one lane on the shoulder, passing what was obviously a wreck.
The closer I edged up to the wreck the more my heart sank....
There on its side was a van, covered with a white sheet. The first responders were leaning against the concrete barrier obviously waiting for the medical examiner to arrive to pronounce this person deceased.
Tears began to fill my eyes, my lip began to tremble...the sobs began when I saw the car was filled to capacity of clothing and items.
I realized that this person was either living out of their car or driving around with all of their belongings in their car due to Hurricane Harvey.
I cried the rest of the way to the insurance claim office, my perception of my reality was changed in an instant.
No longer was I heartbroken, instead, I was filled with gratitude. I have told people when they say they are sorry for what has happened to my family that I was grateful I hadn't lost anyone or my animals, that we were all alive.
But seeing that vehicle on its side knowing that no more than fifty foot away from me was a person who had just lost their life, was life-changing for me.
Someone's family will be receiving that difficult call of the tragic news that I was witnessing first hand.
That person was someone's loved one...
My loss seems so insignificant when you put things into perspective.
I am grateful to be stuck in traffic, I am grateful to have arrived home safely.
No matter what struggles I have in my life, or heartbreaking situations I will deal with, I am grateful to be alive to experience them.
May you rest in peace. May your memory help your family in their times of sorry.
Today I am grateful to be blessed with today.
I know that everyone is getting tired of Hurricane Harvey, I assure you I am too! One thing for sure it has taken my mind of my pain and AS for sure. Just know a different kind of pain fills my heart.
I had an appointment to go to my insurance claim office to sign over the Impala that was totaled out due to the flood waters.
I have been having trouble with anxiety these past few weeks when leaving the house.
It was so shocking to see the aftermath of Hurricane Harvey on a larger scale outside my neighborhood.
I was parked on the freeway stuck in traffic, looking around, the bayou is about 50 foot down but there in the trees, some 60 foot in the air was a bag of garbage resting on the tree branches as if it had perched its self there for a sunny day.
There were so much trash and debris everywhere, and no matter where you looked people's lives were piled out on the street for heavy trash pickup. Each home had a story to tell of loss, pain, and devastation one right after another and so on and so on. It was beyond heartbreaking it was soul shattering to see.
Traffic came to a standstill and people were honking and you could see their frustration on their faces. I tried to concentrate on the music and not the fact I would probably be late to my appointment.
Sitting in traffic for almost an hour was very frustrating and like everyone else, I began to think what the hell, let's go already!
One by one we moved at a snail's pace, then the reason for the stalled traffic became obvious.
My heart dropped seeing the police directing several lanes of traffic to one lane on the shoulder, passing what was obviously a wreck.
The closer I edged up to the wreck the more my heart sank....
There on its side was a van, covered with a white sheet. The first responders were leaning against the concrete barrier obviously waiting for the medical examiner to arrive to pronounce this person deceased.
Tears began to fill my eyes, my lip began to tremble...the sobs began when I saw the car was filled to capacity of clothing and items.
I realized that this person was either living out of their car or driving around with all of their belongings in their car due to Hurricane Harvey.
I cried the rest of the way to the insurance claim office, my perception of my reality was changed in an instant.
No longer was I heartbroken, instead, I was filled with gratitude. I have told people when they say they are sorry for what has happened to my family that I was grateful I hadn't lost anyone or my animals, that we were all alive.
But seeing that vehicle on its side knowing that no more than fifty foot away from me was a person who had just lost their life, was life-changing for me.
Someone's family will be receiving that difficult call of the tragic news that I was witnessing first hand.
That person was someone's loved one...
My loss seems so insignificant when you put things into perspective.
I am grateful to be stuck in traffic, I am grateful to have arrived home safely.
No matter what struggles I have in my life, or heartbreaking situations I will deal with, I am grateful to be alive to experience them.
May you rest in peace. May your memory help your family in their times of sorry.
Today I am grateful to be blessed with today.
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