My stress levels have been over the moon. I have not been on any type of medication for my Ankylosing Spondylitis since the Obama care (let's get rid of the disabled ) allowed my previous employer to change my retirement benefits. None of the medications I have taken since my teens is covered but I have managed to pay for everything but Remicade. I can't afford it, hell no one can.
Stress contributes to Ankylosing Spondylitis pain and flare up and believe me my life has been stressful since March.
These past three weeks have been incredibly stressful and I am paying the price.
I am still in pain due to being run over by a mobility scooter and was just getting mobile again.
Hurricane Harvey was the icing on the cake.
My chest has been killing me the past few days and yesterday was horrible not only due to the pain but to the point my stressed pushed me. Believe me, I am not proud of my behavior and have been really out of sorts since yesterday.
So today I decided to pretend my life was normal and have a perfect day.
I sat on the porch drinking my coffee making sure my view was only of the part of my yard that still looks the same.
I enjoyed laughter and phone conversations with several people.
I did little things here and there.
I put a load of my shirts on and then decided to watch television.
Later on, when I went to get clothes out of the washer, they were all ruined. I had accidentally put in a sundress in that I usually wash it by hand because the dye bleeds so bad, but exhaustion is causing me not to pay attention to detail.
So everything I own is now blotched in red dye. It's ironic that my clothes survived Hurricane Harvey but not Cookie Monster. But on a good note, I look good in red!
But never worry life has a way of helping prioritize the crises in your life.
I went to the shop to do some errands and when I got home I noticed I had missed calls from my daughter. I am usually never without my phone but I had forgotten it on the table.
So I called her back, only to learn they had been in the emergency room with my granddaughter Taylor.
She broke her arm.
Taylor breaks her arm and that breaks Nanny's heart.
I am not really sure how much more my family and I can handle but I am sure fate is going to let us know.
I am at a loss on how to feel lately, I am struggling so much and at this time I do not feel that I am going to survive this.
I am not sure who Cookie will be when life becomes normal again.
Today I am grateful for the medical team that took care of my granddaughter. I am grateful for medications that will ease her pain. I am grateful that she is a tough cookie. I am grateful it was on her mother's watch and not when she is skateboarding at Nanny's house!
Oh, and I am grateful for growing up in the era of tie-dyed shirts!
Because tie-dyed doesn't look so bad on me after all!
Stress contributes to Ankylosing Spondylitis pain and flare up and believe me my life has been stressful since March.
These past three weeks have been incredibly stressful and I am paying the price.
I am still in pain due to being run over by a mobility scooter and was just getting mobile again.
Hurricane Harvey was the icing on the cake.
My chest has been killing me the past few days and yesterday was horrible not only due to the pain but to the point my stressed pushed me. Believe me, I am not proud of my behavior and have been really out of sorts since yesterday.
So today I decided to pretend my life was normal and have a perfect day.
I sat on the porch drinking my coffee making sure my view was only of the part of my yard that still looks the same.
I enjoyed laughter and phone conversations with several people.
I did little things here and there.
I put a load of my shirts on and then decided to watch television.
Later on, when I went to get clothes out of the washer, they were all ruined. I had accidentally put in a sundress in that I usually wash it by hand because the dye bleeds so bad, but exhaustion is causing me not to pay attention to detail.
So everything I own is now blotched in red dye. It's ironic that my clothes survived Hurricane Harvey but not Cookie Monster. But on a good note, I look good in red!
But never worry life has a way of helping prioritize the crises in your life.
I went to the shop to do some errands and when I got home I noticed I had missed calls from my daughter. I am usually never without my phone but I had forgotten it on the table.
So I called her back, only to learn they had been in the emergency room with my granddaughter Taylor.
She broke her arm.
Taylor breaks her arm and that breaks Nanny's heart.
I am not really sure how much more my family and I can handle but I am sure fate is going to let us know.
I am at a loss on how to feel lately, I am struggling so much and at this time I do not feel that I am going to survive this.
I am not sure who Cookie will be when life becomes normal again.
Today I am grateful for the medical team that took care of my granddaughter. I am grateful for medications that will ease her pain. I am grateful that she is a tough cookie. I am grateful it was on her mother's watch and not when she is skateboarding at Nanny's house!
Oh, and I am grateful for growing up in the era of tie-dyed shirts!
Because tie-dyed doesn't look so bad on me after all!
Today I am most grateful to still be blessed with a family that I love and worry over.
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