Earlier in the month of August my interview with Dan Reynolds for This AS Life, Live was released.
I had many people questioning the authenticity of my responses to his questions, but I spoke my truth from my perception of the reality of my life.
It would be several weeks later that Hurricane Harvey would destroy my normal happy life.
During the week that Hurricane Harvey was intruding on my life, I watched that video over and over, trying to remind my self that is how I truly feel. That is my belief, it has been for many years, now as I write this, I am not so sure.
Below are parts of my interview that gave me strength that now taunts me:
"It was just a way to see the positivities. And the more you do that and focus on that, that’s what you carry instead of the darkness. Because it becomes lighter for you. It really does."
My reality today: I am struggling to stay focused on the positivities of my life AFTER Hurricane Harvey, as I deal with the realities of the aftermath of this disaster has done to my life.
"When you look in the mirror and know that you’ve done your best is as good as anybody else’s best. Your best is your best."
My reality today: I am fighting so hard to remember I am doing my best, to the best of my ability due to my physical limitations, due to the aftermath of this storm, due to the limited resources I have available to me and the fact that everyone I would depend on is struggling too.
"You’re not what happens to you. You’re what you choose to be. And it’s a choice. You can’t change it. I mean, you can’t. But you can change how you embrace it, and how you let it affect you. And I don’t want it to control me."
My reality today: I am struggling not to unpack and live in the despair that surrounds my heart. I am trying to remember I can't change what has happened to me and my family. That the only thing I can control is how I let it affect me. I am trying to gain control over a life that is out of control.
It's so difficult to wrap my head around the fact that something I have spent a life time trying to live and be in spite of what has ever happened to me, that once was my source of comfort now feels like it's making a mockery of me.
I am stronger than whatever life brings my way, I am I am I am! For just for today, I need to curl up, have a long cry and be human...
I will work on being super woman tomorrow.
The friends that have given me a safe haven to allow me to remove the mask I hide behind and give me a safe haven where I am free to be afraid and upset, is what I am most grateful for today.
Today I celebrate with It's my party and I will cry if I want to cry if I want to cry if I want to!
You would cry too if it happened to you!
I had many people questioning the authenticity of my responses to his questions, but I spoke my truth from my perception of the reality of my life.
It would be several weeks later that Hurricane Harvey would destroy my normal happy life.
During the week that Hurricane Harvey was intruding on my life, I watched that video over and over, trying to remind my self that is how I truly feel. That is my belief, it has been for many years, now as I write this, I am not so sure.
Below are parts of my interview that gave me strength that now taunts me:
"It was just a way to see the positivities. And the more you do that and focus on that, that’s what you carry instead of the darkness. Because it becomes lighter for you. It really does."
My reality today: I am struggling to stay focused on the positivities of my life AFTER Hurricane Harvey, as I deal with the realities of the aftermath of this disaster has done to my life.
"When you look in the mirror and know that you’ve done your best is as good as anybody else’s best. Your best is your best."
My reality today: I am fighting so hard to remember I am doing my best, to the best of my ability due to my physical limitations, due to the aftermath of this storm, due to the limited resources I have available to me and the fact that everyone I would depend on is struggling too.
"You’re not what happens to you. You’re what you choose to be. And it’s a choice. You can’t change it. I mean, you can’t. But you can change how you embrace it, and how you let it affect you. And I don’t want it to control me."
My reality today: I am struggling not to unpack and live in the despair that surrounds my heart. I am trying to remember I can't change what has happened to me and my family. That the only thing I can control is how I let it affect me. I am trying to gain control over a life that is out of control.
It's so difficult to wrap my head around the fact that something I have spent a life time trying to live and be in spite of what has ever happened to me, that once was my source of comfort now feels like it's making a mockery of me.
I am stronger than whatever life brings my way, I am I am I am! For just for today, I need to curl up, have a long cry and be human...
I will work on being super woman tomorrow.
The friends that have given me a safe haven to allow me to remove the mask I hide behind and give me a safe haven where I am free to be afraid and upset, is what I am most grateful for today.
Today I celebrate with It's my party and I will cry if I want to cry if I want to cry if I want to!
You would cry too if it happened to you!
Today I am grateful to have been given this amazing opportunity.
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