Because Mom

Many moons ago I used to do crafts, crocheted, needle point, cross stitch and so many other things, I loved that part of myself. One year I made all my Christmas ornaments and even crocheted “popcorn” to go around the tree, it was one of my most wonderful experiences and beautiful too!

I got this bright idea to be make Christy and Taylor something special for Christmas this year. I am not sure what I was thinking, I cannot tell you how many times I gave up today and it was the first day!

It is very unlikely that they will be completed for Christmas, but I am determined to do this. I started years ago before Austin’s passing and gave it up. I still have them put away in a box.

I bought new items to do this, and boy was I overconfident! One thing I have learned today is that I am not as crafty as I used to be and dang sure not patient at all.

Christy called me this evening and I was in tears, she asked me what was wrong. I told her I was working on her Christmas gift, and I am not happy with the results so far. I was so emotional over this which was silly, but I told her I wanted it to be perfect!

With so much love she said it will be mom. I asked her what makes you so sure she said because Mom,  you made it.

That small child in me wants it to be “perfect” but the old woman in me is so happy that she will love it because it is made with love and every step of this project is done with thoughts of her.

Today I am so grateful that she feels that way about me.