Boom

Today I was in my front yard, picking up debris and just enjoying being outside. I have a tree in the front where a family of woodpeckers has moved into. I have enjoyed watching them and listening to the babies. I was under the tree and cleaning around it and stepped away. I heard a strange sound and felt a whoosh and brush of air against my back. I turned around to see the large limb that had been their home lying where I had been standing. It reached from the edge of the tree all the way across the yard and landed against the porch.

It is large and heavy; I couldn’t move it. I stood there staring at it and it hit me how close I had come to maybe being killed or hurt seriously. 

It hit me deep in my core, the thought of wow; it could have been over right there in my own front yard. I have had near death experiences or more traumatic than this incident but this one affected me more deeply. Maybe because I appreciate life more or maybe it’s because I have found an inner peace I have never had before, maybe it’s because for the first time in my life I can say I honestly like myself all of me. Maybe it’s because for the first time in my life I have experienced unconditional acceptance and love. Maybe it’s because I realized the hurt from others wasn’t about me it was because of the type of the person they are. Maybe it’s because I have been blessed so much in my life.

I’m not sure what it was but it was a reminder that every moment both the good and the bad and the pain free, painful and pain less and the struggles and victories are ALL BLESSINGS and nothing in this life is guaranteed or should ever be taken for granted.

I may not live a life that society dictates as wonderful, but my life is mine and I love and appreciate it and I am grateful that today was not my last day on earth.