New Year Resolutions

Here is to 2018 and good riddance 2017!

You tried breaking me but you didn’t nor will you succeed, because I refused to let you break me.
You were seductive with your adventures and deceitful with your blessings lacing them with cruel tragedies, you were cruel with your destruction and you brought me to my knees…

You ripped my heart into shreds and seared my soul with so much loss…
You made me feel like Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz walking through a life I didn’t recognize with its blessings and hardships.

As I close the door on 2017 and peek into 2018, I am determined to stay true to myself. I have no choice but to carry your markings into 2018 but I will not carry your pain, your cruelty, your tragedies I will only carry the beauty, the blessings, the gifts and the growth you brought into my life with me into this new year.

I will carry no grudges or hurt caused by you or anyone into this new beautiful year. I will let go of my insecurities and doubts and leave them in the aftermath of 2017. 

I will fight to be a better me and to do better in this world day by day. I will try to be brave and step more out of my comfort zone. I will try to be a better example to others and at the same time remind myself the only one that I answer to is the person in the mirror.

I want to live in the moment and feel every minute and emotion of my day…
I want to focus more on letting go of those and what I need to.
I want to focus on experiences and not things…
I want to focus less on doing it right but just doing it.
I want to make sure that a day doesn’t pass that I have forgotten to be grateful for it…
I want to know that when my time comes… that I did the best I could with what I was given to live my life to the best of my ability…

Today I am grateful we all survived 2017.