The Truth Is The Honor Is Mine

Somedays I just want to give up and some days I think just maybe I can do this thing, you know this thing called life!
Somedays I feel like such an imposter because I fight so hard to be positive, to be giving and to be present in my own life.
Somedays I fight not to let the bitterness, anger, and pettiness fill my heart because I want to just stand up and SCREAM don’t you see ME!
Can’t you see how hard this is?
Can’t you see how much I struggle?
Can’t you see how determined I am to do this?
Can’t you see?

More times than not I wonder if people can honestly see me.

Then out of the blue, you read something that brings you to tears and fills that struggle in your soul with such a peace it's indescribable.
Some people are blessed with that feeling of peace every day and some of us fight so hard for it that we almost miss it.

And then you come across this...

Family and Friends, so much has been going on in my life this month, I don't even know where to begin. So I will start with the post below. There are some amazing women doing remarkable things to raise awareness for Ankylosing Spondylitis and Cookie-Cheryl Hopper is one of them. She is a huge inspiration to me, I actually had the privilege to post her interview with Imagine Dragons singer Dan Reynolds,(who also has AS for those that don't know) on my Thursday post for Walk AS One and I was so nervous. It's Cookie, I didn't want to mess it up! Her work in the AS community is monumental and I am humbled to be apart of the project she is working on. Putting a face to AS, an invisible disease. She was impacted by Hurricane Harvey and with any disaster, you have to get yourself and your family put back together before you can get back to your charity work, volunteer work, writing, educating, etc.. or as I like to call it, "your life's work". It's not easy to just pick back up after time lost, especially with a goal in mind, but Cookie brought out that strength, determination, drive, that I admire so much. You almost have to have those traits with a disease like this, never knowing from one day to the next how you're going to feel. Being mentally tough is not easy all the time, but when you have a community of people that understand exactly what you are going through and can lift you up and help you through your hard times, it makes it easier to get your mental strength back. Her goal is to have 2700 Faces of Ankylosing Spondylitis and their stories (optional). I am honored to be number 1827 on The Wall. Receiving that news yesterday, of all days, was exactly what I needed. Thank you Cookie for all that you do, you are an amazing woman and I am so very grateful to know you.  💙 😊

I assure you the honor is all mine!

This beautiful post brought me to tears, tears I couldn't control. Tears that were healing, comforting, healing and peaceful at the same time. My blessing of the day...

Today I am grateful for the sincere words from such a kind and loving person who took a moment to see “me.”