Hoping

I am hoping to make today about wonderful memories, I really am but…

Five years, I do not understand how time moves so slow, but the days move so fast. It seems like it was this morning I got the call. I remember everything about today, the noises, the smells, the people, the pain, and the anger. I do not understand the why of things, why… I ask that over and over. Why…

But I am going to focus on memories, a loving man who welcomed me with open arms and a kind smile into his family. I loved being around the family, so big full of laughter and love. My heart breaks that you had to suffer so much. I try not to imagine but sometimes I do. You would be so proud of your family. They have allowed the love for you to fill their hearts and not revenge or hate. I am still haunted by the memories of that day. I am so sorry that you had to suffer such a horrifying death.

Today I am grateful for our time and a gentle voice telling me, you are family, girl! Never forget that. Till next time Billy.